WARNING:
Some spoiler is included in this post for Whisper
of the Heart. Well, sort of.
I finally
got around to cleaning out and organising my drawers for the longest time.
Longest being I left Manila for an indefinite vacation in my hometown which
ended up lasting a year. All the while leaving almost everything I’ve ever
thought of and felt [in paper] here. When I got back (last May 5, yey!), I’d
been too lazy to do anything about it.
But now as I was taking everything out and riffling through the pages of my old notebooks, I saw this essay I actually called Old Letters to Myself (PART I). What the hell had I been thinking of in those times to make me come up with a title like that? What happened to part 2 and 3; is there a 4? The “letter” was talking about the latest book I’d read so far then, First French Kiss and Other Traumas, a collection of semi-related short stories by Adam Bagdasarian. [Very good book, by the way. I do recommend it.] How it inspired me to write. The stories I thought of writing. My muses. But there’s this passage that gave me a “mind-blown moment”.
But now as I was taking everything out and riffling through the pages of my old notebooks, I saw this essay I actually called Old Letters to Myself (PART I). What the hell had I been thinking of in those times to make me come up with a title like that? What happened to part 2 and 3; is there a 4? The “letter” was talking about the latest book I’d read so far then, First French Kiss and Other Traumas, a collection of semi-related short stories by Adam Bagdasarian. [Very good book, by the way. I do recommend it.] How it inspired me to write. The stories I thought of writing. My muses. But there’s this passage that gave me a “mind-blown moment”.
It’s
about this “… work of the one who created Howl’s Moving Castle, and it tells
the story about a young violin maker and a writer girl who didn’t know what to
do with her life until the boy left for Italy to hone his craft… of making
violins. I can totally relate to the girl in almost every sort of way. Even her
best friend and my best friend look just about alike. [And, yes, my best friend
was a smart hopeless romantic, too.] I can see my own childhood in that girl.
Except there was no violin maker in my life. And no one asked for my hand in
marriage. And so I grew up like this. (Now you have some sort of idea would
happen to the girl if there was no Seiji in her life.) Darn it!!! I really
couldn’t remember the name of the girl. It was really good, though. Very
inspiring.”
*laugh*
Boy, could that passage be more wrong?
The movie
was, in fact, called Whisper of the Heart, my favourite by Studio Ghibli, and
the protagonist’s name is Shizuku—a name that became so dear to me that I
decided to use it in one of my never-ending stories. Still no violin maker… but
there’s this girl who out of the blue just claimed to be my owner, and I, her
pet cat—yeah, yeah, thus, the name Kitty. I thought her offensive at first but
she was just really trying to be friends. We bonded over the littlest things
and were comfortable in each other’s company. I knew she was going to someone
special. And when her impending departure was starting to sink in to us (she
flew back to her country), we were so miserable that she actually suggested we
get married. Not the most romantic of proposals but we never wanted to be
parted with.
Seiji and Shizuku photo from Google
In the
movie, after two months of internship in Italy, Seiji went back to Japan to
tell Shizuku he will be going away again, this time for ten years. Like, what
the fuck, right? Proposal comes next. But they’re only middle-schoolers anyway
so that should give Shizuku plenty of time to get her life in order. As for me,
I don’t have the luxury of ten years so the plan is to study very hard to make
up for times I messed up, graduate, get a decent job with a good pay, save, fly
off to Bangladesh to be with my one true love, kidnap her and go to Paris.
There’ll be boys, maybe (and a real proposal), but right now, this is what I
have to get by.
The point
is it’s hard to live when you have nothing to live for. To change your ways
when you don’t see anything wrong with it. You get contented with the way
things are. Sometimes, there will be that one person who will turn up just to
point it to you. And you’d better be prepared for it. ‘Coz you ain’t gon be the
same. If Seiji and Jahan (the one that got away) didn’t come into our lives, my
dear Shizuku and I would still be a hell of a mess right now.
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